Archive for October, 2008

Library Days…

Posted: October 30, 2008 in General

This is what we do when we’ve been in the Library for too long…

Lose something?

Posted: October 29, 2008 in God, mentoring

“For everything you gain, you lose something.” ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson
What truth this is… I have gained so much in the past couple of months! To be honest with you thought I limited the amount of insight, love, and experience I could have gained, because I was drowning in the sorrows of what I lost. I lost something from this summer that I thought the Lord had put in my life to stretch my heart and to teach me dependency on Him. Just when I thought it was a cool unique thing that the Lord put in my life for a “lifetime” I found out it was for only but a short season. Now I have regrets for sitting around wondering about this loss instead of making the most of those things, people, and memories I could have been embracing.Thankfully, the Lord allowed me to gain something even greater than what I lost. :)

Thanks Mr. Emerson for stating something so simple, but so profound!

Homecoming Festivities

Posted: October 28, 2008 in General, school
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Come out to the FALL FEST ’08 on October 30th at 8 p.m. by the Field House…Then come to the Volleyball Game on Friday night. Prizes for the Best Buccaneer and Blue/Gold ensemble costumes. See event flyers below:

Fall Fest is gonna be off the chainz.

Volleyball needs your support. We need to beat High Point this Friday. We need you there to support and taunt their players. Plus, we have prizes for BUC or Blue/Gold Ensemble. AND we will give out BUC CUP Points to the teams with the most players dressed in costumes. Join me in supporting the LADY BUCS!

Loving Him for Opportunities!

Boldness vs Silence

Posted: October 28, 2008 in General, God, mentoring
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Boldness

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Boldness is an opposite of being shy. A bold person may be willing to risk shame or rejection in social situations, and willing to bend rules of etiquette or politeness. Boldness does not necessarily mean obnoxious; it is possible for one to be bold, while staying silent.

Silence

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Social

Silence in social interaction is the absence of speech. According to cultural norms, silence can be interpreted as positive or negative. For example, in a Christian Methodist faith organization silence and reflection during the sermons might be appreciated by the congregation, while in a Southern Baptist church, silence might mean disagreement with what is being taught, or perhaps disconnectedness from the congregated community.

In spirituality

A silent mind, freed from the onslaught of thoughts and thought patterns, is both a goal and an important step in spiritual development. Inner silence is understood to bring one in contact with the divine or the ultimate reality of this moment.

So I am not so sure why those two words came to mind today but I had decided I was going to write a blog today and that is what I sat down and typed. Interesting enough, those two words are relative to one another, yet so uniquely distinct.

I want to be BOLD and not silent many days, but some times the Lord brings me to a position where I have no words to say and therefore I remain SILENT.

What does the bible tell us to be?

Proverbs 28:1 says, “The righteous are bold as a lion.”

“in whom we have boldness and confident access through faith in Him.” Paul writes in Ephesians 3:12.

….come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need” Hebrews 4:16

The KJV in Hebrews 13:6 says, “So that we may boldly say, The Lord is my helper, and I will not fear what man shall do unto me.”

It seems to me that it is important for us as Christians to come boldly to the throne of God in our prayer, in our lifestyle, and in our words. Prayer to the Lord should be intently seeking an answer from the sovereign One. Boldness is having the guts to ask Him for things and to tell Him your expectancy. How about in your lifestyle…Do you wear things the rep’ Christ? Do you surround yourself with people who rep’ Christ? Last, what about those words that come out your mouth? Are the words of TRUTH or are they just simple conformity? I am going to be completely honest… I am often a wimpy Christian and I coward behind someone, something, or a bid SILENCE.

Hmmmm.. SILENCE! Now what does the Bible say about this?

“Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!” says King David in Psalm 46:10.

1 Peter 2:12 – “Be careful to live properly among your unbelieving neighbors. Then even if they accuse you of doing wrong, they will see your honorable behavior, and they will give honor to God when he judges the world.”

The Prophet Habakkuk said, “The Lord is in his holy temple: let all the earth keep silence before him” (Hab. 2:20).

As we have seen, “wait on the Lord” often means “be silent before the Lord.” It is necessary that we collect our thoughts and quiet our hearts for worship and adoration before we can truly pray. “My soul, wait thou only upon God” (Ps. 62:5) is the equivalent of saying, “My soul, be thou silent unto the Lord; remain still in the presence of the Lord; stop what you are doing, and seek the Lord.”

I have to admit I do not slow down and sit still to even be SILENT, but yet when I am intimidated and shy and wimpy about bringing forth TRUTH and EXPECTANCY I will sit in silence. Does this mean I am defeated? Probably not, but I should yield to this lesson from the Lord. When I need to be SILENT I want to be BOLD and pretend I know everything I need to gain awareness, likeness, etc.

Here is a cool article I found about Waiting on the Lord and being silent and still.

Now here is the challenge.

Will you be silent OR bold!? Or will you be BOTH!? I believe that we’re called to be both. I want to be both.

Breaking…

Posted: October 25, 2008 in General, God

break (brk)

v. broke (brk), bro·ken (brkn), break·ing, breaks

1. To cause to separate into pieces suddenly or violently; smash.
It seems like during tense and desperate times we find that it is necessary for the break to be violent. Especially when you’re trying to walk closer to God and you have been pushing Him away consistently to the point of becoming numb to your need for Him. What we have come to see is that until we are broken we do not truly understand the freedom that we have in Christ, the love that we have to give and the light that we are called to shine.
“No matter where you are on the journey to the glorifying, liberated life in Christ, you are His treasure. He does not want to take from you. He wants to give to you and free you from any hindrance.” Beth Moore (A Quick Word from Beth Moore)
I am pretty sure that I know at least a handful of people who have been struggling with embracing the truth that we need to break free from our bondage so that we can grow and then impact others. I had to read this book called The 8th Habit by Stephen Covey that says that leadership in an organization is as simple as finding your own voice and then inspiring others to find theirs. The reality of it is that the devil is a liar and he convinces us that we should focus on those things that burden our heart because of our emotions and not because we’re called or convicted. If we listen to Satan’s lies we might hear…”God doesn’t care.” “You’re wasting your time.” “This is too hard, its much easier to just stay where you are.”
I have to admit that I have been extremely stubborn in the past 4 or so months because I have been focused on getting past my own obstacles and not focused on leading the people who I am suppose to lead, spend the time with God like I should, and have been arborin’ anger because of a weak relationship with my dad.
What else has been broken?
1. half way point til graduation. (49 days)
2. my stubborn will to not talk with the people I trust about my struggles.
3. my friends hearts have been broken.
4. the weather
Oh yeah – the weather is breaking into Cold!! The temperature has broken, people aren’t sweating, so grab a sweater or hoodie and roll on! :) I know Clair and I are stoked about this.

Living the DASH!

Posted: October 21, 2008 in General

Counting down until graduation seemed like a fun idea…and I am sure come day 1 I will be super thrilled..but those days in between are what suck for us. Right?

MySpace Countdowns

No – actually those days are the crucial days that make the outcome reality. What I do with my time working on this project and what I do with my time spent with people will determine my character and my love for the people I am around.

I once heard the story about the tombstone and the birth date, death date and the DASH in the middle. Its the middle dash that makes the beginning and end significant. How challenging to view it that way, huh?

I’ve come to realize that God is only going to tell me the next step when I get to it. He does not usually allow me to “preview” what’s to come. So I am just chillin’ out, all the while trying to make the most of my “here and now” so that my DASH will mean something…so that when I walk across that stage it means something and when someone reads my eulogy I will have left a legacy of service.

Live your life today with confidence that your impact will be great. Tomorrow will have its on worries and needs.

What Do You Feed Yourselves?

Posted: October 20, 2008 in General

So, I’ve been interested in finding new blogs to follow…I’ve also been talking to other people to find out who they follow and what they feed themselves. In other words, what are you reading or being influenced by? This is important to acknowledge so that you’re not bringing corrupt mind and heart to the forefront for Jesus.

Some blogs I’ve found to be insightful…

Perry Noble

Lifechurch.tv

History in the Making

Church Tech Matters

If you know of more please share!

My How a Week Can Change Things…

Posted: October 14, 2008 in General

Until last week when I got the chance to see my roommate and really spill my heart to her about some things going on with me emotional over my past, my present and my future…I began to be released of this pressure of having to be perfect and it helped just to be honest and real. I told her that I had not talked to Lynette in a while and I just really wanted that time so she went on to make it happen. I am so thankful to her for pushing me to do that, because she saw the desperate need for me to talk with my spiritual mentor. I got that opportunity to finally express some hurt and pain I have never dealt with. It was good afterward, but soooo painful to just say it to her face to face. I was fighting tears because I know that what decisions I make in dealing with these types of feelings, pains, scars, and such will be a reflection on my character when I am trying to minister to others. But the more I talk to others about how to reach people the more I realized I needed the same things to be reached and expressed love. (Below is my wonderful mentor and my niece Lauren)Then on Friday night I got the priviledge of some “down” time so I went to see the Lady Bucs play some Volleyball which they kicked butt! I just sat and was a fan this game, but following that I got some one-on-one time with my Fish. JP and I went to Moe’s and then to see a movie. I needed this time because yet another person in my life who seeks to love me and express his concern for my well-being in all areas of my life. I am so thankful for him. (Below – JP modeling on the beach – haha – not bad to look at either, huh!??! haha!)

Once I found out I didn’t have to go on the mission trip to Tennessee … I jumped in the car and drove to Darlington for the night. I got to go to the Sweet Potato Festival for a while, see my Mom, Dad, Brother & Family, and dinner with Aunt Polly and Granny. I also got to spend some time with Granny doing things around her house and talking about life. She is my hero! I am starting to worry about her though because of her health and she is slowing down physically and mentally. As much as I dread Darlington some times — this weekend was so needed and I loved every second of it. :) (Below: Travis eating some Oreos with his Aunt Tam!; Me and my two God children – Jacob, Tam, Joseph)
Yesterday, I returned to work and to the my Charleston family! I went to Jachin’s 2 yr old Birthday party at Ci Ci’s Pizza. It was good to be back in my somewhat normal state of mind and loving my family. (Below: Me and Jachin at his party!)

To feel so far from grace and love is not a good feeling at all, but its been incredible to see how God works all things for His good according to His purpose. I am definitely not fine or better or great, but I am on my way to healing from a lot of wounds. I still have a lot of anger, hurt, selfishness and pride in me. Keep praying for me.

For now — I’m off…

Let’s go LADY BUCS SOCCER vs. CCU and LADY BUCS VOLLEYBALL vs. High Point!

wordle?

Posted: October 13, 2008 in General

thanks to my friend lauren — i found this cool thing — pointless but cool! :)

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ways of this world

Posted: October 9, 2008 in General

I just keep giving in to the ways of the world…

1. I have been looking into an iPhone and changing from Verizon to AT&T, but I have until August 2009.

2. But I did sign up for Twitter…what ever the heck that is. HAHA! Just another stalking method! Check it out (www.twitter.com) and add me!

So aside from that I am half way through the Fall semester which means only 60 days until graduation. That’s right…December 13th… Mark it on the calendar! As DMX would say…Party “up in here…up in here!” I just took my mid-term which was on the WHOLE text book..what??? We’re only half way through the semester, right? I made an 82 (C) on it and I took the Major Field Test which was extremely boringgg and three hours long. My focus is now left on this Business plan. If you have any insights to writing one of these let me know!

I am working on my personal website to get picture galleries up, but I am not sure I know how to accomplish this. But check out this cool thing…http://csusports.athleticsite.com/page.asp?articleID=2118. They put up these wallpapers I designed on the CSU sports website. They acknowledged my contribution and linked to my website. That’s why I want to get my site more sophisticated.

so long for now…