Having lunch with a sister in Christ today was refreshing. To know that I have someone fighting for the same things that I am fighting for…and serving for the same reasons that I am serving for…and the fleshly struggles are the same as the ones that I struggle with! Why is that refreshing? Well, some times we build ourselves up and bring this regard that is we are perfect or that we don’t struggle, yet that is far from the truth. Especially when you get into ministry you find more and more people trying to “walk on water” so to speak to impress people or as some might think to show a godly example for others to follow. That is why today was refreshing… We got to speak <confess> to one another about our failures and lack of Jesus in our daily walk with Him aside from doing ministry with the college students. Just doing life!
Watching and learning from other believers can some times open your mind and heart! Its in those moments that God reveals something new about Himself to you. If you are anything like me then you might find yourself sitting through a meeting, event or even worship service critiquing everything from the time you walk in until the time you walk out. Tonight I went to CRU for probably the first time ever and it was so cool because they are just so real and unpolished. In my ‘world,’ we are always trying to be so polished and seamless, but the beauty in the matter is that God receives that which is meant to glorify Him! “Make vows to the LORD your God and fulfill them; Let all who are around Him bring gifts to Him who is to be feared.” (Ps 76:11 NASB) I honestly stepped out of myself and worshiped the Lord not concerned with the words on the screen or the sound being too loud or the lights not working. I brought before the King gifts of praise! Its also times like that when I get to witness what God is doing in OTHER students lives. DBow lead worship tonight. That is a special guy in my life that I have been able to watch grow and develop into a MAN after God’s own heart. I also got to share more about myself (and hear words of description about my character) with Allison. She is a precious child of God that I desire to share life with next year.
Really trusting the Lord. After prayer walking last night on campus I really felt the Lord pulling me towards the different female athletic teams. As I was praying I was crying out to the Lord to show me how to make a sacrifice for these girls and coaches. I begin to wipe away tears from my eyes as I prayed for some of the specific girls. I am not sure what it is that the Lord wants me to do, but now is the tough part…WAITING! And while you wait on the Lord we have to TRUST that He is working! Like I have said many times before – I am still striving to be more like Jesus and I am no where near being a righteous servant of the Lord! I am still learning what it looks like and means to TRUST the Lord. What do I think it looks like? Well, I believe that you have to daily decide that it is the plan of the Lord to what comes across your path! I have to recognize and acknowledge that my actions and motives are tied to the outcome, but the Lord is bigger and will direct and determine my path. Pretty deep, huh?
Now, those things seem so beneficial and rewarding…so why do we hesitate to embrace them?
