You know over the past couple of weeks I have been in multiple situations where the truth came out and you know it did not feel so great. Have you ever found yourself with a heartache like that? The reality of it, the Bible is true when Paul said that the truth shall set you free! What the Bible does NOT tell us is that the TRUTH is not always easy to swallow or painless.
Isn’t it funny how some times we will allow situations and people to torture us even when we KNOW it is not healthy or worthwhile? Do you ever find yourself being lured in to situations like this? Why do we open that gate and let it flood, but then whine when it does not stop? How is it possible to shut down your feelings without any baggage especially is this “trip” has been going on for an extended amount of time.
Take time to answer some of those questions and you might find that you’re not as prepared to battle this journey alone.
I have to admit that I find myself allowing my heart to go unguarded when I am around people who I feel are trustworthy. Then in that weakness you add emotional circumstances, physical attraction, and encouraging affirmation from friends AND you just might find yourself in a mess! Now mind you this recent situation is not the FIRST time I have slipped into this trap. Yes! I went over 4 years of liking, hoping, waiting, hurting, serving and even loving this one guy who come to find out was not mutually engaged with me. Talk about tough to swallow. Why would I continue on for so long you may ask? Well, I wanted to be faithful to the desire in my heart about this guy. I listened to the words of hope, faith and promise that he said to me over those years so I continued to wait on him. More recently I struggled through the emotional roller coaster of developing feelings for someone that isn’t exactly mutually in with me! Why would I allow myself to get BACK in to a similar situation. I believe some times our desire to be loved and to love comes in different sizes and circumstances. My circumstances is that I was attracted to this man of God who knows that he has a “calling” on his life. BUT if you have ever had this happen to you then you KNOW it is not easy to hear the truth, yet very essential. Thanks to some consistent and protective friends I have been forced to see reality in TRUTH (not so sweet) and love…
This past Elevate, Jon was speaking about how Jesus became human as a test from God. He suffered and CHOOSE to be like human man to show us his allegiance to the Lord. God tested Jesus’ heart for the sake of humanity. Just like he tested his HEART…He will test our HEARTS for allegiance to His will in your own life. Webster defines allegiance as devotion or loyalty to a person, group, or cause. We pledge allegiance to the United States of America as we salute the American flag. Do we pledge our allegiance to the Comforter, Provider and Savior?
“Many a man proclaims his own loyalty, but who can find a trustworthy man?” (Pr. 20:6)
You might be asking how this relates to my trials and tribulations. Well, I believe that everything happens for a reason and as God tests my heart then He is going to use my circumstances and testimony to reach more people who are seeking wisdom! Jon went on to say, “the greater the obedience the greater the test.” I am also reminded in 1 Corinthians that God will not bring more trial on you than you can handle. Just as we were reminded that temptation does not come from the Lord, but from Satan. God just allows us to show our loyalty to His word, promises, and love by resisting that temptation. What does not kill us will only make us stronger, right?
So when I look back to these trials I am reminded that God loves me and wants me to know this kind of LOVE from a guy. The places I am seeking to “create” this love is my problem. So for mission Monday, I am commissioning myself to seek the Lord and pledge my allegiance to HIS will. Will you do the same thing?
