First one finally…
The topic this week is confidence! Random jump to such a strong underlying word, concept and emotion, but something that I have personally been battling over the last….28 years…
Confidence defined by Webster is a feeling or consciousness of one’s powers or of reliance on one’s circumstances, or faith or belief that one will act in a right, proper, or effective way.
I think most people think because I have shown myself to be capable with my talents that I am a confident person. To be honest, I know deep in my heart that the Lord will use me despite of that lack of confidence AND that he will use my developed talents to show ME that I am capable and usable. So many days I walk in to a situation knowing what I need to do and should do, but in my heart I am scared, insecure, and sometimes even screaming inside.
I did something that is some times dangerous. I asked some friends to tell me some areas that they think that I lack confidence so I have listed some of them with some areas that I think. Just to name a few…
Every time I go to take pictures at an event. Yes, even the ones I am just shooting for fun.
When I became the chaplain for the Volleyball team. I had no clue about the sport. I didn’t know how the girls would respond to me being there with them.
Sharing my faith some times.
Insecure in my physical looks. Questioning whether or not this is why I am still single.
Giving advice/Mentoring. I am scared I am going to lead someone in the wrong direction or that I won’t have the right answer.
The authority I have… Some times I let people take advantage of me because I desire to please people.
As I started the bible study with some of the female athletes.
So, as much as I accomplish and with the many talents I have… I still lack confidence in getting to the end result of being GREAT! And most importantly, because of my lack of confidence I am not giving God all the glory that He deserves because I am basically saying to Him that He is not big enough to use me or mold me in to the person that I should be. Standing still in my lack of confidence is hindering me from being obedient.
Do you lack confidence? If so, what do you lack confidence in?
Some times the truth hurts, but the other saying is true too that the TRUTH shall set you FREE!